September Flower of '82

Saat ini degupan jantung ku lebih kedengaran Berbanding irama dan melodi di telinga ku Why does life seems to be hard lately? Hilangkah makna hidup saat ini? Kemundar mandiran fikiran Dihalangi dinding berupa ketakutan Kedinginan dalam hati Sedang terik menggigit kulit ku Maaf diri ini tidak daya menjadi hampir sempurna Berasa tuli saat kegamatan Berasa gelap saat terang Kesemua yang dirasai tidak lebih kedengaran Berbanding detak jantung ku Bila akan hentinya detak itu? 27/12/2018 12.30pm

Tears fall at the end of a long day Where am I going? I thought I was in enough pain But I guess there’s still a lot left As if I’m alone in this big world No one tries to look into my heart No one When I close my eyes I see myself and I tell myself Not to get tired To take a break for a moment That the thick darkness That doesn’t seem like it would leave Will leave once I let myself go Like a foreigner among laughing people I’m the only one who seems like everything is lost Was I just running forward mindlessly? My dreams have gotten too far away now Will this long sadness ever stop? Will warm sunlight ever shine down on me? Becoming myself And seeing stars that will forever shine I’m dreaming these kinds of sleepless dreams But the foolish me Only realized That I’ll never be myself Only after I opened my eyes Becoming myself And seeing stars that will forever shine I’m dreaming these kinds of sleepless dreams But the foolish me Only realized That I’ll never be myself Onl

Tonight, I’ll send you the firefly from that day To your window That means that I love you I remember our first kiss Every time, I close my eyes And it takes me away to the farthest place Like the words written in the sand Where the waves are I’m afraid you’ll disappear So I always miss you I can’t take out All the things in my heart But this means that I love you How did someone like you come to me? If only we could be together right now How nice would it be Like the words written in the sand Where the waves are I’m afraid you’ll disappear So I always miss you I can’t take out All the things written in my diary But this means that I love you Tonight, I’ll send you the firefly from that day To your window I hope you have sweet dreams https://popgasa.com/2017/03/24/iu-through-the-night-%EB%B0%A4%ED%8E%B8%EC%A7%80/

What should I say? Where do I start? I’m only hanging my head You’re looking at me In this awkward silence I don’t love you I’m sure you already know Even when I see you shedding tears My heart doesn’t ache anymore I don’t love you There’s no other reason I don’t even want to say I’m sorry or forgive me That’s all This is how I really feel I don’t love you I don’t love you I don’t love you I’m sure you already know Even when I see you shedding tears My heart doesn’t ache anymore I don’t love you There’s no other reason I don’t even want to say I’m sorry or forgive me That’s all This is how I really feel I don’t love you I don’t love you I don’t love you There’s no other reason I don’t even want to say I’m sorry or forgive me That’s all This is how I really feel I don’t love you I don’t love you https://popgasa.com/2016/05/26/urban-zakapa-i-dont-love-you-%EB%84%90-%EC%82%AC%EB%9E%91%ED%95%98%EC%A7%80-%EC%95%8A%EC%95%84/

Take a deep breath Until both sides of your heart get numb Until it hurts a little Let out your breath even more Until you feel like there’s nothing left inside It’s alright if you run out of breath No one will blame you It’s okay to make mistakes sometimes Because anyone can do so Although comforting by saying it’s alright Are just words Someone’s breath That heavy breath How can I see through that? Though I can’t understand your breath It’s alright I’ll hold you It’s alright if you run out of breath No one will blame you It’s okay to make mistakes sometimes Because anyone can do so Although comforting by saying it’s alright Are just words Someone’s breath That heavy breath How can I see through that? Though I can’t understand your breath It’s alright I’ll hold you Even if others think your sigh Takes out energy and strength I already know That you had a day that’s hard enough To let out even a small sigh Now don’t think of anything else Let out a deep sigh Just let it out like that S